"I dropped a tear in the ocean. When they find it, I'll stop missing you."
I learned in the past few months...
That your favorite flower is my favorite flower.
That the most unique flower you've seen is growing in my living room right now.
That you absolutely love your cousins & nieces & nephews.
That you love dressing up.
That you and your brother are so close.
That you get along so well with so many people.
That you love India.
That you plan for things way in the future [that picture you want to show Mahi at her wedding].
That you have two dream homes (at least).
That you love taking care of babies and puppies.
That you love taking pictures.
That you were born in our home in Dingucha.
That everyone really loved their two bhaanis, and were excited for their maamerus.
That our family in India absolutely adored you.
That you also sucked at flying kites, hah.
That you love sugar cane juice.
That you were probably just having a bad week or month or year when you visited.
That you took some official "modeling" pictures.
That you were in a music video.
That you love chocolate.
That you like oranges.
That you believed in God...and maybe even heaven.
That you love sunsets.
That you liked roller coasters.
That you said you wanted to read Songs of Blood & Sword a few days before leaving...
That your boss liked you.
That your chocolate pecan pies were good-or so they looked.
I can't stop going through your pictures to learn more about you. I know that it's not good but there is no way for me to feel closer to you. I miss you. I'm not sure if I'm come to terms with your death yet; hence the fact that some verbs are still in the present tense. I wish that I had taken out time to learn about all of the above earlier...and that we didn't worry so much about the little issues we had. [But what's gone is gone.]
Sigh, I don't even really know what to say. There is a little bit of hope in me that says you can read this, wherever you are. But the logical me knows that that isn't true.
But there is something that is true. At this bhaani's wedding, you will be remembered. The maameru I receive will be for both of us, because that's how it was meant to be. I miss you and I hope that God is taking care of you.
I just had to get that off my mind. I love you <3 <3 <3 Oh, and I intend to read that book before Nov 2nd 2011.
So long <3
I learned in the past few months...
That your favorite flower is my favorite flower.
That the most unique flower you've seen is growing in my living room right now.
That you absolutely love your cousins & nieces & nephews.
That you love dressing up.
That you and your brother are so close.
That you get along so well with so many people.
That you love India.
That you plan for things way in the future [that picture you want to show Mahi at her wedding].
That you have two dream homes (at least).
That you love taking care of babies and puppies.
That you love taking pictures.
That you were born in our home in Dingucha.
That everyone really loved their two bhaanis, and were excited for their maamerus.
That our family in India absolutely adored you.
That you also sucked at flying kites, hah.
That you love sugar cane juice.
That you were probably just having a bad week or month or year when you visited.
That you took some official "modeling" pictures.
That you were in a music video.
That you love chocolate.
That you like oranges.
That you believed in God...and maybe even heaven.
That you love sunsets.
That you liked roller coasters.
That you said you wanted to read Songs of Blood & Sword a few days before leaving...
That your boss liked you.
That your chocolate pecan pies were good-or so they looked.
I can't stop going through your pictures to learn more about you. I know that it's not good but there is no way for me to feel closer to you. I miss you. I'm not sure if I'm come to terms with your death yet; hence the fact that some verbs are still in the present tense. I wish that I had taken out time to learn about all of the above earlier...and that we didn't worry so much about the little issues we had. [But what's gone is gone.]
Sigh, I don't even really know what to say. There is a little bit of hope in me that says you can read this, wherever you are. But the logical me knows that that isn't true.
But there is something that is true. At this bhaani's wedding, you will be remembered. The maameru I receive will be for both of us, because that's how it was meant to be. I miss you and I hope that God is taking care of you.
I just had to get that off my mind. I love you <3 <3 <3 Oh, and I intend to read that book before Nov 2nd 2011.
So long <3
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